“Mami I wan’ do tha” this is Analise telling me to help her hang from a monkey bar. She wanted to do the same thing as Kael. She is not yet tall enough or strong enough to do it on her own so she needed my help. She felt no fear, but soon things changed.
She put her little hand on the monkey bar and hung there completely still. I was standing behind her ready to catch her in case she got too tired. Her face exposed everything that was going through her child-like thoughts.
She started looking very excited. She thought she could do it by herself. I think for a moment she thought she was a big girl that could take after her big brother. In an instant, her whole countenance changed. I could see the fear in her eyes and soon she wasn’t hanging still anymore.
“Mami help. I wan’ down!” Her arms were weakening and she knew she couldn’t do it by herself anymore. I was right behind her where she couldn’t see me. I wasn’t going to let her fall but she didn’t know that. She was focused on using what little strength she had left in her tiny fingers to not plummet to the mulched ground below.
I put my arms around her and as soon as she felt me surround her, she started laughing. I could feel all the fear melt away.
She knew, in that moment, she was safe.
“Thank you Mami.”
Analise’s five minute adventure made me wonder how many of us mamas have felt this way before?
Crippled by fear.
Thinking that we can do things in our own strength only to find out that we are getting weaker by the hour.
I have been there so many times. I don’t hang motionless in those moments. I struggle in frustration and use up what is left of my strength reserves to the point where I simply can’t keep going anymore.
God still meets me there. He never gives up on me. Even through the doubt, he is ready for me to fall into his promises. I know I can trust him. I know I am safe.
How to quiet your fear
His promises are so empathetic. He knows and understands and can relate directly to what we are feeling. He really knows what we need. He meets us in the midst of our darkness.
When fear is knocking at the door, close your eyes and meditate on His truth.
“But know, this is what the Lord says… Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name; you are mine” Isaiah 43:1
He knows us to the depths of our being. We belong to Him.
“Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41:10
He is right there next to you. He will not let you fall.
“Tell everyone who is discouraged, Be strong and don’t be afraid! God is coming to your rescue…” Isaiah 35:4
He is coming to our rescue! That has been my prayer lately.
“Come to our rescue.”
When Analise was afraid, she knew I would come to help her as soon as she needed me because I had proven myself to her over and over again, even as a flawed human being. God has proven his faithfulness to us as His children over and over again for millennia. He is there listening and he cares for you.
Fall into his promises!
Let’s talk again soon…